It’s the middle of the night.  I took Ativan at bedtime, but I’m still unable to sleep.

I’ve been home from the hospital for a week now.  Dr. M. (who is wonderful and was the Oncologist on call at the time) tried to get my CT scan results before I left the hospital.  Because he was unsuccessful, I have been waiting for what feels like forever.  I’m scheduled for a chemo follow-up appointment with Dr. L. tomorrow afternoon.  I will have bloodwork first, then wait an hour, then see her.  At that time, I should find out the CT results.  Then I will know whether or not the chemo worked.  Have I achieved a complete remission or a partial remission?  If the remission isn’t complete, what’s the next step?  I have been anxiety-ridden all week.

I’m hoping for the best.  I bought gifts for the chemo nurses and a bottle of champagne for Dr. L.

Whatever happens, I’ll keep you posted. . .